affection/neglect/affection a test some of us have to take in life

in one’s life one finds a vast array of emotions

as a child perhaps un be knowing of  so much

there is not the realisation of a parents needs

reality can mean your out of touch

but in a child’s mind  there can  be great visions

that sally back and forth and won’t depart

whatever they are ,they are meaningful

and permanent

really part and parcel of the heart

a mother is the angel in the mirror

a mother is the fantasy around

a mother makes it happen

a mother waves her wand

perception is the father I have found

whatever happens whether dreams

or nightmares

the child may blame the mother

on all counts

and as the child grows up

and becomes a mother

she may recall

how she felt

as she mounts

the various stumbling blocks

that may present themselves

and tries in many way

so to fulfil

maybe she does

or possibly she doesn’t

but it means her love is

endless really still

and as the years pass

and her mother ages

and her needs grow

with each passing hour

that she may call on her daughter

for some favours

and once again neglect

may sort of sour

one’s thoughts

those years when possibly

one’s life could have been good

instead somehow it was not to be

though honestly it should

that said a soul emerges

as warm and as kind and does

forget the bad times

and draw s on the reserves

and with  a buzz

that draws heartfelt  emotions

and gives it out at will

loves the mother

loves her so

letting it all spill

the mother should have given more

but the child became the soul

who now can teach the mother

can  now take on that role

despite so many problems

the daughter may still  find

a willingness to help her mum

though it may be, a bind

she can do it from her heart

she wants to make the time

resentment in the background

for she’s the glowing spirit

who will climb

who gives her love so purposefully

in a realm of her own making

adversity has strengthened her

and she’s giving now not taking

neglect can be a lasting stain

on a child that felt  alone

but a child who learned and realised

that from all the wild flowers sown

the one’s that come to fruition

and produces the sweetest scent

is the one that she  remembers most

and thus remains content

the mother may feel sorry

seeing the daughters  display

and really then regretting

some things she did say

and some things she forgot to give

the mother may now feel

humbled by the kindness

that somehow she does steal

reality resentment recounted

possibly

but the soul has grown in stature

and is flying admirably

maybe sometimes reflecting

on if,     then what might be

but thinking now to be able

to help provide that key

that doesn’t really open the door

too well but  clearly she

can at least get inside

with some effort

which we see

and what that tells us

is

the daughters stature

grew and grew

she had a heart

much bigger than the heart

perhaps of  2

daughters

had the mother had them

and with this we see

an image of great beauty

for perpetuity