Amber 1986

You thought I never knew you

but I was part of you

you made me into what I was

one of the very few

unique souls, I imagined

my place to be beside

you know of course I loved you

and you know

I never died

I am with you now forever

for so many children do

escape into the spirit

no medical terms for me

but I came and   I grew

inside of you

until i did break free

you thought perhaps of burial

but why, for I was whole

I leapt into another place

for I was a precious soul

with all your burgeoning tissue

and your precious DNA

I was every part of you

growing stronger by the day

your heart beat was the music

when you, laid down to rest

that’s when silence transcended

a time, I remember best

often you would talk to me

I felt your hands, as you

touched my growing warm domain

as many mothers do

I never died

I always tried

to nestle in your soul

you were, always, my mother

in complete control

immersing yourself in water

I remember, the perfume

I recall Kate Bush and Lion heart

echoing through your womb

Now of course I am older

almost 25

its been a gradual process

how I could survive

without you

close to me, of course

I still have sight and sound

the ether is my portal

and at night I am around

often I observe you

in the peacefulness where woe’s

silently

and softly

the serenity in you flows

your eyes closed to the heavens

your breath a shallow sound

tis then I sit beside you

dear mother

and I’ve found

great solace in positioning

myself beside your bed

listening to that same heart beat

sweet music, as I said

how I love you mother

you know I never died

I am with you

now forever

when you sleep

I am by your side