A staggering involvement
unprepared for where I was
the slaughterhouse of horrors
really just because
thoroughly unanticipated
like a thunderbolt to me
pregnant with a baby
emerging tragically
it felt unprecedented
exhaustion to a tee
coming from the farm yard
from the dark dairy
Caught napping stark and wondering
birth apparently
my little calf was on the floor
bleeding surprisingly
my maternal instinct to love her
right away
the noise around us awful
like depravity
Frighteningly obvious
my calf unexpectedly
not moving eyes wide open
seeing little seemingly
on the edge of darkness
my thought to try and see
to assist my darling calf
To appreciate and be
alive to breath and being
loving was my aim
clearly we were in a queue
and would never feel the same
death clearly approaching
reminded of my sin
a life of utter torture
i must revive my baby
the end though near for me
a savage slash of terror
closed my eyes regretably
no real time for anger
smouldering was I
revengeful to the obvious
i was about to die
the severity was out there
provoked into a roar
a gurgle and a tantrum
entering a war
Clearly not of my making
a darkness overcame
a bitter pill I tasted
A botheration game
a flame in me ignited
no longer could I feel
death the end of everything
a disgusting reveal.