Lily pad

My Earth Mother was by my side
Physical and there
She was my rock no kinder soul
Sharing my despair
From the time I felt that energy
Like a shower of the purest rain
Washing over me at that camp
Where the pikey’s were the bane

Of all the animals who live there
And to feel that positivity
Like a stream of light it came
And just enveloped me
I stood there on the doorstep
Pleading with my eyes
She took me in she got me through
Away from those vile guys

Her smile her touch her aura
For me she was the one
Her spirit and her heart and soul
All of it seemed spun
Into a web of gossamer
Of love and care and I
Brought my boy along with me
Which eventually was why

Both of us joined her family
Through the heartbreaks and the pain
The joy the tears but we never
Regretted anything again
These past weeks have been difficult
Oddly I have been
Thinking of my feral roots
Out there in the green

A shadow in the forest
A gleam across a glade
I would vanish in the fields beyond
Where the house did fade
Away a while and imagine
That alone I would never be
I always had a home to go to
To watch over constantly

That quality of freedom
Came with an upsurge of care
Which so enhanced my being
So happy to be there
The garden was so special
For me a land where glee
Where fantasy was realised
And where I wanted to be

The apple tree the bijou
The old dragon always still
The totem and the aura
How such harmony did spill
Down towards the honeysuckle
And that perfume there to last
And Earth Mother with a beaming smile
My imagination cast

And to see me in the garden
With the sticks i loved to play
I felt as if i could touch the clouds
And i did that everyday
I grabbed each organic bounty
With such balance and such poise
For me in a nutshell
It was one of life’s sweet Joys

I would sit there on the patio
Or high up on the store
The eyes and ears or so it appears
And Earth mother at the door
Calling us to come and eat
Which had not happened before
We were lucky if we got some scraps
Thrown at us out of the door

Often we would feel a boot
Or a lighted cigarette
Flicked at us for being there
So now to just be set
Down and left to wander to explore
To do our thing
Brought a lot of happiness
Into our lives
Which made me sing

Other animals came and went
They were loved and missed and we
Felt the love extended through
The whole family
To actually be a part of something
Wonderful at last
Was miraculous and special
And life it moved on fast

Time moves on, and our tenure
Of course it moves on too
Things change children grow up
Its perpetual and its true
Seasons come and seasons go
We shared the humans traits
Of birthdays and of celebrations
Remembering the dates

This is not my life story
Just some details cobbled by
What I could remember
For today
Yes I did die
Earth Mother nursed me
Loved me held me wanted to
Give me every chance to stay
But today of course I knew

I had been growing weaker
Like a cobweb in a breeze
A mere shadow of my former self
I could no more climb up trees
Or really even scramble
Up onto the bijou I
Was exhausted by so little
And really I knew why

Dullness and immobility
Just torpor I felt spent
I had my perch and my little room
Its just where I went
I could see the garden
Through the window
And could smell
The blossoms and could hear
The bird song which I knew so well

I didnt feel like eating
Or drinking any more
I know that I looked very thin
I felt that more and more
I knew Earth Mum was noticing
She was crying I could see
I could feel her pain and her suffering
On account of me

She left her bedroom open
I heard her breathing she
Though very tired was on my case
Her nearness it was key
To how I felt my journey
To the Summer Land beyond
Beyond the veil of reason
To where I could respond

She was with me every minute
She never left my side
Any fear inside of me
She really helped me hide
For sharing and for caring
Meant everything to me
Whereever I was going
She was going to be

She was my stability
My silence and my rest
I felt becalmed beside her
As if back in my nest
In my windless slumber
Within her sweet repose
The velocity of growing
With the constancy that knows

Her breath was like a drum to me
Sweet music of her soul
Her hands were warm and very soft
I kind of felt her role
To guide me and to festoon me
With such love and so much care
Her sweetness like a nosegay
So willingly she did share

I had no physical pain at all
Just anxiety and dismay
Concern for my Earth Mother
Who might soon be far away
Her haunting voice her Elysian spells
She would conjure at my feet
Inviting me to try and see
The wonder that would greet

My entrance to the SummerLand
Assuring me that I
Would fit in and be accepted
Which is finally why
I closed my eyes and opened them
One last time to see
Her wet eyes peering down
So beseechingly.

My boy Bear had been snoozing
As i was going through
The journey phase to the SummerLand
And when I was gone he knew
Earth mother and Luca were in sorrow and in tear
And Bear got up and peered at me
Wasn’t he a dear!

An hour or so after i had passed
I wanted one more time
To go back to the garden
And upon the wall to climb
Absorb the minty freshness
Soak up some April sun
And Bear i know could see me
In the magic web i had spun
Our eyes met in a moment
Through Bear I was on view
Earth mother i could see her
And she could see me too.