Its been unbearable

I am a baby bear
not really that aware
born in India
my mother by my side
yesterday they came for me
picked me up unfortunately
put me in a little cage
mother roared for quite an age
she was warning me that I
might be forced to dance
I lie
thinking about her how she
told me about this
mentally
she was scarred by years
of pain
and it seemed it would
happen over again
this time to me
why was it so
the painful thoughts in
me would grow

what I remember was then
they took
me out of the cage
and shook and shook
me till I thought that I would die
mentally I was less thean high
I was so tormented
in such distress
my head was really in a mess
giddy and sick
I wanted to lie
down quietly
and yes perhaps
just die

they threw me into another cage
under a basket
I was there an age
well it seemed so
to me anyway
no water no food
alone
to stay
like this missing my mothers
breath
the warmth of her body
it felt like death

I was cold and lonely
and feeling I
was going to be left
here to die
and me just a baby
nothing to do
but lie here
thinking
without a clue

as to what or why
or how or when
suddenly in they came
that was then
grabbed manhandled me
hurt me so
ad tied me to a post
you know
the rope was course
it hurt my neck
it was short
and it kept me in check
I couldn’t move
there in the light
it hurt my eyes
the sun so bright

after the darkness
I could hardly see
then kids threw rubbish
straight at me
came and tormented me
jeering aloud
some aimed kicks
a big crowd
came and booed and pinched and hit
I had to suffer all that shit
no where to go
no place to turn
and in the sunlight
I did burn

then they came
a frenzied soul
with a red hot poker
from out of the coal
forced it through my muzzle
and I
cried out inside me
I must die
I must escape this torture
now
really honestly tell me how
human beings act like this
really now taking the piss
the sizzling and burning of my hair
it sculpted through my bone
aware
of the the egregious pain I felt
no painkillers this pain had dealt
me such a blow
my whole head shook
I couldn’t breathe
I daren’t look
I tasted blood inside of me
I cried out
almost desperately
hopeful someone, someone
just might come and ease the woe
for |I was numb
my feeling left me for a while
as if someone had switched the dial
and I had become the walking dead
with wide open eyes
and I bled and bled

then that moron came
with the coarsest rope
and threadelled it through my nose
the hope
was it all was over
but soon I saw
that it opened the wound
and exposed the gore
my jaw was aching
my nose was raw
the act of breathing
left me so sore
I was in such pain
the perils of life
suffering brought on
yet more strife
when he came with his hammer
and smashed my teeth
one after another
and underneath my gums
the splinters cut me so
more blood and more blood
was to flow
all my teeth soviolently
were knocked out
and fell in front of me
I’d been beaten starved
and left for dead
for hours and hours I bled and bled
I wanted to die
I wanted to be
floating somewhere
instantly

then the hot coals glowing white
were put under me
causing a fright
were they cooking me
alive I thought
what was the evil nasty sport
but what they were wanting
was making me dance the chance
to just get free
from the burning my feet burned
so sore
more torture more pain
just more and more

so I am, a dancing Bear
I go out in the streets
with my handler
where?
where the crowds congregate
and then I dance
I dont really have chance
I have to dance or I dont get fed
or worse still I can just be led
to somewhere quiet where he will beat me
my claws are gone and my teeth you see
I cannot retaliate anymore
I just take the beatings
until I’m so sore

then I go back and dance
and he rattles his can
and the tourists come
and thats the plan
they dont know the currency very well
and the enrich this fiend
this shit from hell

if this is my life
dancing each day
and then beaten
all this dismay
I beg the big god to end it for me
to spare me the rod
and to let me walk free