A staggering involvement<\/p>\n
unprepared for where I was<\/p>\n
the slaughterhouse of horrors<\/p>\n
really just because<\/p>\n
thoroughly unanticipated<\/p>\n
like a \u00a0thunderbolt to me<\/p>\n
pregnant with a baby<\/p>\n
emerging tragically<\/p>\n
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it felt \u00a0unprecedented<\/p>\n
exhaustion to a tee<\/p>\n
coming from the farm yard<\/p>\n
from the dark \u00a0dairy<\/p>\n
Caught napping stark and wondering<\/p>\n
birth apparently<\/p>\n
my little calf was on the floor<\/p>\n
bleeding surprisingly<\/p>\n
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my maternal instinct to love her<\/p>\n
right away<\/p>\n
the noise around \u00a0us awful<\/p>\n
like depravity<\/p>\n
Frighteningly obvious<\/p>\n
my calf unexpectedly<\/p>\n
not moving eyes wide open<\/p>\n
seeing little seemingly<\/p>\n
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on the edge of darkness<\/p>\n
my thought to try and see<\/p>\n
to assist my darling calf<\/p>\n
To appreciate and be<\/p>\n
alive to breath and \u00a0being<\/p>\n
loving was my aim<\/p>\n
clearly we were in a queue<\/p>\n
and would never feel the same<\/p>\n
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death clearly approaching<\/p>\n
reminded of my sin<\/p>\n
a life of utter torture<\/p>\n
i must revive my baby<\/p>\n
the end though near for me<\/p>\n
a savage slash of terror<\/p>\n
closed my eyes regretably<\/p>\n
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no real time \u00a0for anger<\/p>\n
smouldering was I<\/p>\n
revengeful to the obvious<\/p>\n
i was about to die<\/p>\n
the severity was out there<\/p>\n
provoked into a roar<\/p>\n
a gurgle and a tantrum<\/p>\n
entering a war<\/p>\n
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Clearly not of my making<\/p>\n
a darkness overcame<\/p>\n
a bitter pill I tasted<\/p>\n
A botheration game<\/p>\n
a flame in me ignited<\/p>\n
no longer could I feel<\/p>\n
death the end of everything<\/p>\n
a disgusting reveal.<\/p>\n
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A staggering involvement unprepared for where I was the slaughterhouse of horrors really just because thoroughly unanticipated like a \u00a0thunderbolt to me pregnant with a baby emerging tragically it felt \u00a0unprecedented exhaustion to a tee coming from the farm … Continue reading