{"id":50457,"date":"2021-03-23T00:42:19","date_gmt":"2021-03-23T00:42:19","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/cooksdelight.co.uk\/blog\/?p=50457"},"modified":"2021-03-23T00:51:42","modified_gmt":"2021-03-23T00:51:42","slug":"nell","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/cooksdelight.co.uk\/blog\/2021\/03\/nell\/","title":{"rendered":"NELL"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>A phenomenon<br \/>\nA circumstance<br \/>\nBehold a forest scene<br \/>\nIn the Backwoods<br \/>\nA setting<br \/>\nBeautiful and green<br \/>\nAn old house<br \/>\nFar from anywhere<br \/>\nMiss Kelty<br \/>\nAnd her daughters<br \/>\nPeace and quiet<br \/>\nAnd tranquillity<br \/>\nThe stepping stones<br \/>\nTo far away<br \/>\nIn visions<br \/>\nOf normality<\/p>\n<p>A hermitage of sorts<br \/>\nAn elemental place<br \/>\nA mother living all alone<br \/>\nJust a wild and calming space<br \/>\nGrowing up imagining<br \/>\nAssumptions everywhere<br \/>\nA sort of  serendipity<br \/>\nThe randomness they share<\/p>\n<p>Able with a vigour<br \/>\nWith resources all around<br \/>\nWood to chop<br \/>\nFish to catch<br \/>\nThe sights how they abound<br \/>\nA true survivability<br \/>\nAn overwhelming power<br \/>\nCompelling and assertive<br \/>\nHow the eyes can flower<\/p>\n<p>Can resurrect an image<br \/>\nOf life perhaps before<br \/>\nThe beauty of  each moment<br \/>\nIn the mind there on the floor<br \/>\nA sister lost forever<br \/>\nSpirited away<br \/>\nA story of the stepping stones<br \/>\nWhere once yes we did play<\/p>\n<p>A parent old and loving<br \/>\nA sister whisked away<br \/>\nWho took a trip to Heaven<br \/>\nOn a fated day<br \/>\nAnd I was left with mother<br \/>\nWho cried for Mother Earth<br \/>\nWho knew  the span of History<br \/>\nPresent on the earth<\/p>\n<p>We spoke in our own language<br \/>\nOne day dear mother she<br \/>\nWent to join my sister<br \/>\nIn the Heaven full and free<br \/>\nBeyond the trees high in the sky<br \/>\nLaying on the floor<br \/>\nI pressed the blossoms on her eyes<br \/>\nTo help her see some more<\/p>\n<p>She had been  my inspiration<br \/>\nMy connection to this place<br \/>\nShe was dominant but gentle<br \/>\nAnd let me run and chase<br \/>\nPlay and join the spirits<br \/>\nThe backwoods did inspire<br \/>\nThe harmony of being<br \/>\nAnd the resourcefulness of fire<\/p>\n<p>She laid down on that morning<br \/>\nWeaker than before<br \/>\nHer breathing became laboured<br \/>\nIt made me feel unsure<br \/>\nThe immensity of losing her<br \/>\nMy surroundings though I knew<br \/>\nEvery nook and cranny<br \/>\nOn my memory I drew<\/p>\n<p>The wilderness was living<br \/>\nWhere Mother stared into<br \/>\nHer spirit had gone somewhere else<br \/>\nThat much I knew was true<br \/>\nAlone I watched her body<br \/>\nThe only dweller now<br \/>\nThe cottage  by the river<br \/>\nAnd A chapter as to how<\/p>\n<p>The  delivery boy came hither<br \/>\nAnd shouted to the sky<br \/>\nI managed to scream a message out<br \/>\nAnd he came up by and by<br \/>\nFollowed by the sheriff<br \/>\nAnd a Dr who<br \/>\nFound me where I was hiding<br \/>\nHis eyes to mine he drew<\/p>\n<p>Frightened startled rarely<br \/>\nHad I seen a man so tall<br \/>\nThis was now my place my world<br \/>\nThe vicinity was all<br \/>\nI had ever wished for<br \/>\nThe surroundings were where I<br \/>\nMade up all my stories<br \/>\nEncompassing the sky<\/p>\n<p>On the edge of somewhere<br \/>\nBound by the forest gay<br \/>\nWhere I laid  my head each night<br \/>\nAnd dreamed of far away<br \/>\nMy imagination, the stories in my head<br \/>\nThe regularity of form<br \/>\nWhere often I was led<\/p>\n<p>Through the mirror<br \/>\nOf uncertainty<br \/>\nA portal somewhere to<br \/>\nAnother world of happiness<br \/>\nWhere I could  just go through<br \/>\nMeeting Dr Lovell<br \/>\nHe brought to me some care<br \/>\nHe really talked my language<br \/>\nAnd was seemingly aware<\/p>\n<p>An outstretched arm<br \/>\nA smoothness<br \/>\nA soft voice in my ear<br \/>\nA women came called Paula<br \/>\nWhen she was near, his fear<br \/>\nWas prominent I felt it<br \/>\nerratic and some what tense<br \/>\nUnhurried was his manner<br \/>\nWhich seemed to make more sense<\/p>\n<p>He was kind and was understanding<br \/>\nAn earthling to be sure<br \/>\nAn individual human being<br \/>\nWho just did not ignore<br \/>\nMe, nor all my foibles<br \/>\nHe was gentle he was kind<br \/>\nHe stayed around for several weeks<br \/>\nAnd helped me with my mind<\/p>\n<p>He and the other doctor<br \/>\nLived on a boat away<br \/>\nDown the hill not very far<br \/>\nAnd they came everyday<br \/>\nHe helped me with my language<br \/>\nHe seemed to understand<br \/>\nWith patience he was able<br \/>\nTo perceive which did feel grand<\/p>\n<p>He listened and repeated<br \/>\nI couldn\u2019t remember when<br \/>\nAnyone else had given me<br \/>\nThe time of day and then<br \/>\nRepeated how I had spoken<br \/>\nA translation exercise<br \/>\nAnd they watched me and they cared for me<br \/>\nOpening my eyes<\/p>\n<p>To a kind of lovely joyous state<br \/>\nI had not really felt before<br \/>\nLiving in my own small world<br \/>\nOf dreams and many more<br \/>\nVisions of my childhood<br \/>\nOf the memories I shared<br \/>\nOf the world beyond the mirror<br \/>\nWhere sometimes I had dared<\/p>\n<p>To go how I did  tingle<br \/>\nWhen he brushed my hair<br \/>\nThat kindness I had seldom felt<br \/>\nFor me it felt so rare<br \/>\nSo comforting so precious<br \/>\nThat someone cared for me<br \/>\nNot for my looks or expensive clothes<br \/>\nBut just what he could see<\/p>\n<p>The big world outside is heavy<br \/>\nWith people and with noise<br \/>\nA furnace of destruction<br \/>\nA way with all of poise<br \/>\nA loudness the blast of city life<br \/>\nVoices yelling bawling shouting<br \/>\nPollution and so much strife<br \/>\nDissonance and disharmony<br \/>\nSuch harshness on the ear<br \/>\nThe stories in my memory<br \/>\nExchanged for yet more fear<\/p>\n<p>It appears that I was getting known<br \/>\nOther people came<br \/>\nA newspaper man with a camera<br \/>\nWho now should I blame?<br \/>\nJerry or was it Paula<br \/>\nOr the other experts who<br \/>\nWanted to get their hands on me<br \/>\nThe wild child it was true<\/p>\n<p>The scraping rasping harshness<br \/>\nA hospital was where<br \/>\nThey took me to have lots of tests<br \/>\nThe tension that was there<br \/>\nThe bedlam and the aura\u2019s<br \/>\nAnd the sadness and the grief<br \/>\nI had to find myself again<br \/>\nTo regain some relief<\/p>\n<p>The smell there was convulsive<br \/>\nThere was lots of light<br \/>\nBut an over riding darkness<br \/>\nThat reminded me at night<br \/>\nHow loneliness came back again<br \/>\nJust nobody there to care<br \/>\nProfessionals but heartless<br \/>\nAnd,strongly unaware<\/p>\n<p>Jerry came and saw me<br \/>\nAnd straight a way could feel<br \/>\nThe vagueness and the reason<br \/>\nHe felt it, it was real<br \/>\nI actually did communicate<br \/>\nAnd he did so to me<br \/>\nHis assiduousness was relevant<br \/>\nIt was how it had to be<\/p>\n<p>We communicated on the spot<br \/>\nHe picked me up and ran<br \/>\nHe felt the grief within me<br \/>\nThat when it began<br \/>\nTo dawn on me in his defence<br \/>\nDeveloping a plan<br \/>\nTo study me and consequently<br \/>\nImprison me and be<br \/>\nin their shackles all my life<br \/>\nNever to be free<\/p>\n<p>He carried me away<br \/>\nTo safety<br \/>\nAnd out to the court<br \/>\nLegalistic tremors<br \/>\nThey obscured my thought<br \/>\nAnd I showed my conviction<br \/>\nA moral certainty<br \/>\nAnd I found a new family<br \/>\nAn adoption thus for me<\/p>\n<p>Living with the sheriff and his lady<br \/>\nSo much care<br \/>\nNot only just for them but me<br \/>\nAn awareness it was there<br \/>\nWe kind of helped each other<br \/>\nTo see the light of day<br \/>\nTo marvel at its greatness<br \/>\nTo share each bout of play<\/p>\n<p>To be myself,to wonder<br \/>\nMy day dreams were all mine<br \/>\nJerry and  Paula married<br \/>\nAnd their life was divine<br \/>\nThey had a little daughter<br \/>\nAnd she and I became<br \/>\nFriends a brand new  sister<br \/>\nA bright and gentle flame<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>A phenomenon A circumstance Behold a forest scene In the Backwoods A setting Beautiful and green An old house Far from anywhere Miss Kelty And her daughters Peace and quiet And tranquillity The stepping stones To far away In visions &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/cooksdelight.co.uk\/blog\/2021\/03\/nell\/\">Continue reading <span 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