Being riddled with consternation
\nBeing lost in such dismay
\nFor want of a bit more courage
\nI hesitate to say
\nMy daughter she has problems
\nThe school she’s at appears
\nTo not understand her predicament
\nAnd so heightens her fears<\/p>\n
It’s like being alone all day
\nLost in an alien place
\nWith other children staring at you
\nRight into your face
\nMaking nasty remarks to you
\nSwearing about your mum
\nIt haunts your every moment
\nAnd you do,you do feel numb<\/p>\n
The teachers so not see you
\nThey just don’t realise
\nIt’s weird inside this bubble
\nAnd everyone denies
\nYour worth your understanding
\nIf it was not for your mum
\nShe is the one who is there for you
\nShe has always been a chum<\/p>\n
When they begin to frighten you
\nAs they often do
\nYou feel it in your heart
\nWhen you are overawed
\nAnd even bored
\nShe shows you the way
\nIf other mothers swear at her
\nJust because of you
\nBecause they somehow don’t understand
\nWhat you are going through<\/p>\n
She has to take the can for it
\nShe has to comfort too
\nShe has to grin and bear it
\nShe does what she must do
\nShe is realistic
\nAutism is your thing
\nThey may come and bully you
\nIt has that awful ring<\/p>\n
That ominous behaviour
\nSchool isn’t what you thought
\nSome boys are bloody minded
\nYou can feel overwrought
\nYou can feel so dejected
\nAnd frustrated yes you can
\nEven throughout when try your best
\nTo work out a plan<\/p>\n
Something can go pear shaped
\nAggression can become
\nA problem in the playground
\nWhen one or two or some
\nThink they will bash your lights out
\nAnd then what should you do
\nGo tell the headmaster
\nAnd be a snitch all through<\/p>\n
It’s hard just knowing what to do
\nAnd probably it’s best
\nTo wipe it from your memory
\nAnd forget you faced this test
\nGet on with what you do best
\nCuddle your mama
\nTell her that you love her
\nTell her your her star<\/p>\n
Give her back some credence
\nLet her know that you
\nWant her love her and need her
\nWhatever else you do
\nYou are not a jelly fish
\nTo be trodden on and hurt
\nWhy do these boys take advantage
\nWhy do they tear your shirt<\/p>\n
Try to take your books away
\nCall you rotten names
\nPull your tie and pinch your cap
\nAnd trip you up at games
\nThe bedrock of reality
\nIts hard to come to terms
\nThat potentiality
\nIt’s a can of worms<\/p>\n
You know your own identity
\nAnd the inferiority
\nYou feel now in the classroom
\nWhich doesn’t have to be
\nThe school would seem to
\nNeglect you
\nIt’s a handicap alas
\nYou sort of feel unworthy
\nAnd somewhat of an ass<\/p>\n
You just are not the same as them
\nWhatever they are you
\nNeed the regularity
\nPerhaps more than they do
\nYou need that state of order
\nThat methodology
\nIt helps to keep you settled
\nAnd that continuity<\/p>\n
Keeps you feeling harmonious
\nNot confused, not in turmoil
\nNot wound up or uncoordinated
\nWith a temper on the boil
\nOn the autistic spectrum
\nIs a sequel in a play
\nThat takes you into realms of light
\nAnd may help you shy aWay<\/p>\n
My help you really focus
\nNot be pigeon holed and left
\nAs puberty is coming
\nYou must not be left bereft
\nLack of understanding
\nAnd training comes to be
\nA problem for so many
\nAnd of course for me<\/p>\n
I realise I am not the same
\nMy world is upside down
\nThere really is no permanence
\nSometimes I go to town
\nAfter being sworn at
\nOr given a had time
\nThat’s why I need my mother
\nJust to help me climb<\/p>\n
Out of self destruction
\nUp into the light
\nAway from ruination
\nTo discover what is right
\nI haven’t reached my true self
\nMy base line is below
\nI cannot really understand
\nWhere and how to go<\/p>\n
Forward it’s so difficult
\nUncovering my soul
\nWhen all the world is onto me
\nAnd Appears out of control<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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