Winters my name I’m a female<\/p>\n
the same<\/p>\n
a feminine gal from the sea<\/p>\n
from that life giving ocean<\/p>\n
where all my devotion<\/p>\n
was knowing thats where<\/p>\n
I should be<\/p>\n
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captured and stuck in a tank<\/p>\n
made of concrete<\/p>\n
a circus performer of sorts<\/p>\n
no natural rhythms<\/p>\n
no interaction<\/p>\n
no depth and no distance<\/p>\n
my thoughts<\/p>\n
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lost in \u00a0a soupcon of reflection<\/p>\n
a stagnating odorous place<\/p>\n
a tank where deception<\/p>\n
is rank with obreption<\/p>\n
its no place for me or my face<\/p>\n
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I suffer so Clearwater prospers<\/p>\n
and they ‘re making money and more<\/p>\n
my muscle tone<\/p>\n
oh goddess I groan<\/p>\n
when I move \u00a0just everything’s sore<\/p>\n
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nothing alive in my diet<\/p>\n
dead smelly fish that is all<\/p>\n
no seals or turtles its hell here<\/p>\n
the discomfort<\/p>\n
that I must endure<\/p>\n
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I am the fool<\/p>\n
they call \u00a0Winter<\/p>\n
and mypoor \u00a0heart it feels cold<\/p>\n
the torture significant<\/p>\n
truthfully<\/p>\n
but on it all<\/p>\n
I am not not sold<\/p>\n
on circus tricks no way<\/p>\n
I’m not their clown<\/p>\n
this is an ordeal<\/p>\n
and I’m going down<\/p>\n
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I am their scapegoat<\/p>\n
I sacrifice all<\/p>\n
anxious, so much angst<\/p>\n
there’s just a wall<\/p>\n
of silence around me<\/p>\n
where is the sea<\/p>\n
where are the thunderous waves<\/p>\n
they are key<\/p>\n
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to my life to my being<\/p>\n
the sea life my friends<\/p>\n
tanked up in concrete cells<\/p>\n
christ! when it ends<\/p>\n
I will sing to the summerland<\/p>\n
sing to the night<\/p>\n
for this kind of life<\/p>\n
of course its not right<\/p>\n
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I am a wild dolphin<\/p>\n
with wild thoughts and fears<\/p>\n
I need the great ocean<\/p>\n
where oblivion steers<\/p>\n
my every emotion<\/p>\n
my existence for I<\/p>\n
am not made of metal<\/p>\n
I’m alive which is why<\/p>\n
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I so need my freedom<\/p>\n
I scream in my heart<\/p>\n
to live in the now here<\/p>\n
where do I start<\/p>\n
round and round<\/p>\n
in such tedium<\/p>\n
in this soup bowl<\/p>\n
in my own aura<\/p>\n
there is no goal<\/p>\n
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I have no relationships<\/p>\n
no kinship here<\/p>\n
trainers no brainer’s<\/p>\n
those arses are clear<\/p>\n
corporate yes men<\/p>\n
they do what their told<\/p>\n
and say what theyre told to say<\/p>\n
their hearts are cold<\/p>\n
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no matriarch patriach<\/p>\n
affinity<\/p>\n
we are spiritual beings<\/p>\n
with ancestry<\/p>\n
we have our identity<\/p>\n
contrary to<\/p>\n
the management psychos<\/p>\n
that manage this zoo<\/p>\n
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their discrimination<\/p>\n
is just everywhere<\/p>\n
they are discordant<\/p>\n
whilst of course we’re rare<\/p>\n
camouflaged natural<\/p>\n
created to be<\/p>\n
unique by comparison<\/p>\n
souls in the sea<\/p>\n
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superior brains<\/p>\n
we have them and some<\/p>\n
know this and realize<\/p>\n
trainers are numb<\/p>\n
to any advanced stuff<\/p>\n
thicko’s they be<\/p>\n
small by comparison<\/p>\n
to souls like me<\/p>\n
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I’m in this tank 24 7<\/p>\n
I live here I work here<\/p>\n
this is my heaven<\/p>\n
my hell and my toilet<\/p>\n
I’ve no where to go<\/p>\n
this is the end and the beginning<\/p>\n
you know<\/p>\n
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nothing holistic<\/p>\n
about anything here<\/p>\n
the whole caboodle<\/p>\n
do you get it \u00a0its clear<\/p>\n
the trainers go home to their<\/p>\n
fucking abodes<\/p>\n
the owners their mansions<\/p>\n
like fat greasy toads<\/p>\n
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I have monotony<\/p>\n
consecutiveness<\/p>\n
just endless nothing<\/p>\n
a progression of stress<\/p>\n
continuous boredom<\/p>\n
recurrent tears<\/p>\n
round and round and just stop<\/p>\n
that’s what it appears<\/p>\n
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I have to adapt myself<\/p>\n
to this here tank<\/p>\n
conform to their module<\/p>\n
what says the bank<\/p>\n
more lousy humans<\/p>\n
who sit on their hands<\/p>\n
and talk out of their arses<\/p>\n
whilst making my plans<\/p>\n
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which are repetition<\/p>\n
iteration and more<\/p>\n
I am their throwback<\/p>\n
Natural Law<\/p>\n
knows what I’m wanting<\/p>\n
but these fools do not<\/p>\n
in the passage of time<\/p>\n
nothing I’ve got<\/p>\n
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a precarious life<\/p>\n
without changes at all<\/p>\n
everything’s makeshift<\/p>\n
and every fool<\/p>\n
who pays to see me leap<\/p>\n
or chuckle and smile<\/p>\n
I am sick \u00a0in my stomach<\/p>\n
and you lot are vile<\/p>\n
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for supporting these bastards<\/p>\n
these corporate clowns<\/p>\n
they fail in their empathy stakes<\/p>\n
all the towns<\/p>\n
we go to and live in<\/p>\n
and act in, we know<\/p>\n
when we are part<\/p>\n
of their travelling show<\/p>\n
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we await our death<\/p>\n
with joyous intent<\/p>\n
for we are now doomed<\/p>\n
nobody’s lent<\/p>\n
a semblance of naturalness<\/p>\n
for us to behold<\/p>\n
we are ephemeral creatures of old<\/p>\n
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I am a female<\/p>\n
with love in my soul<\/p>\n
matronal embraces<\/p>\n
I had a role<\/p>\n
but human endeavour<\/p>\n
desensitized ghouls<\/p>\n
took that away<\/p>\n
placing me in these pools<\/p>\n
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the pain and emotion<\/p>\n
I flinch and I squirm<\/p>\n
I know yes I know<\/p>\n
I am here now long term<\/p>\n
deaf to the music<\/p>\n
blind to the day<\/p>\n
only seeing their darkness<\/p>\n
that’s why I pay<\/p>\n
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them back for their thoughtlessness<\/p>\n
incogitant ways<\/p>\n
unthinking just thoughtless<\/p>\n
that’s how it plays<\/p>\n
out its my life<\/p>\n
that’s ruined and lost<\/p>\n
their profit enormous<\/p>\n
and its me that its cost<\/p>\n
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Winters my name I’m a female the same a feminine gal from the sea from that life giving ocean where all my devotion was knowing thats where I should be captured and stuck in a tank made of concrete … Continue reading