On the loss of my dear mother

What it is like for me to lose my mother
And not be able to convince the world that I
Am beside myself with grief for she was an angel
Her understanding of me my relief
Poachers came to take her life so cheaply
So heartless of them she was such a soul
To me she was just everything I lived for
And when I saw her missing I lost control.
To date I have just huge heart palpitations
I just don’t wish to open up my eyes
i know that I will never ever see her
She was so bold and so very very wise

I feel intensely sad now at her passing
I cannot bear to think of her like this
I loved her from the bottom of my heart
And she loved me
Our lives together were ultimate bliss

I sit here with the ranger
He is friendly to me and
Cares about me I know that
He cares about the land
He also loved my mother and I know that she
Could feel
The love he had for both of us
We know it was very real

And now the days seem longer
For without her I am lost
A leaf blown by a storm cloud
And in a maelstrom tossed
I sit here relatively peacefully
But deep inside turmoil
I am shaking I am breaking
My blood how it does boil

To face this life without her
Is more than I can bear
All I want above all else
Is that she again is there
Holding me whispering to me
Teaching me so I
Can go out in this great big world
And not be afraid to die

A gorilla who has lost a mother to poachers